More on GUT folk

So, here I am, in the comfort of my own blog, exploring what motivates certain people to be what they are on GUT.

Anonymity is an interesting phenomenon. I mean, attacking people who are themselves exposed is extremely cowardly. The terrorists do it, and many of the GUT folk do.

It amazes me, frankly, that they attack people in such a way. Don't they see how pathetic it is? I mean, here I am, photo, email address, biog and everything out there for everyone to see, yet these people attack me and what I've done.

It's fascinating! How low can their self esteem be? I mean, if it was someone famous and "successful" attacking me, or even someone who's identity was open, then I'd understand it, perhaps. But it's like throwing stones at a defenceless animal or something. It's like mocking a person who can't fight back.

What's absolutely wonderful, though, is that I feel completely OK about it.

I remember watching an episode of the Oprah Winfrey Show, when she talked about how grateful she was that someone "outed" her about skeletons she had in her closet for years. The thing she dreaded most actually happened, and instead of feeling mortified, she felt relieved that she wasn't sitting on secrets.

I actually do feel for the likes of people like "llanci" on GUT, because I know there must be some terrible wound inside that person that causes him to attack me the way he has done.

There are so many lonely people on GUT. I mean, it's inevitable, isn't it, that there will be. Shy, lonely, socially inept people are bound to be drawn to an anonymous forum. People can wear a mask, be who they are in some way that they don't allow themselves to be in public.

But then, whilst it's true that there isn't a person who isn't wounded who posts on GU, the same could be said of the entire world. So perhaps it's just a microcosm of the entire world, as is any society.

I feel so much better about taking critisism now, thanks to people like llanci and whatever his name was, on the "failed actor" thread. They really did help me come to terms with some painful beliefs about myself, be being cruel. In that way, they served me more lovingly than they could realise.

And that's so often the case. The road to hell is paved with good intention, as someone once said. Perhaps the road to heaven is paved with bad! It certainly seems that way sometimes.

But then, The Lord moves in mysterious ways...

I suppose I'll keep being drawn to GUT and the people there. It's been fun playing around with the ones who are easy to wind up, and it's been challenging to find myself caught up in the game, too. At least now and then.

I wonder where it'll go from here? What posts are on the thread now, I wonder? Does llanci understand how karma comes back on him?

It all comes down to intention, of course. Just as people's belief systems create their reality, their intention does too. If llanci's real desire is to hurt, then that must mean he's in real pain. If it's just to have a lark, then he's just immature. If he's genuinely doing the shaman thing, then it'll serve us both.

But fascinating, nonetheless.

And all very British! I know that I've adopted a lot of the kinds of American ways that once upon a time I would have mocked, as well. So it's not like I don't know where they're coming from.

They're just people who, like anyone else, want to feel better in their lives. They want answers, like me.

So bless "em! The little loves!