I'm a genius!

I'm a genius! A fucking, out and out genius!

I mean, what IS the point in saying anything less?

If I were to say I was less than a genius, and didn't believe it, then I'd be a closet arrogant asshole.

If I was less than a genius and believed it, then I'd be somewhat pitiful - even if I was a genius and didn't know it/discover it. Because I'd be living a life of self loathing or ar least a sense of inferiority. Who needs that?

So I declare myself a genius. It really is time to stop wanking around with the kind of humility that only holds one back.

If someone doesn't want to employ, love me, have sex with me, befriend me or anything else because of the arrogance and stuff they might see or project on to me, then that's just to bad for the pair of us.

I stand in my genius. I ooze it, thanks to the mighty creator that flows through me.

Hallelujah! ;0)

But seriously, I've come to the conclusion that genius is, as much as anything else, and attitude and component of self esteem. It's a decision, regarding one's place in the scheme of all things. If a person is unselfconscious, and has a connected interest in a subject or subjects, or the universe in general, and derives enthusiasm and inspiration from that interest or subject, and is keen to discover more about that chosen field, and from that to find new perspectives on the universe or aspects of it, doesn't that make the person a genius?

And what so often stifles a person's interests? Inevitably it's self consciousness, most often initially intilled into the person by others' opinions, values and belief systems.

Eradicate the received belief systems, allow a person to pursue his own interests, and maybe, God willing, you have a genius on your hands.

I know that it's only ever been my thoughts of inadiquacy, which were all instilled in me from believing I had to compete with others, that led me to giving up any chosen field. It was only ever by comparing myself to others that made me give up. Just like the runner who looks over his shoulder, worrying about the competitors, I lost focus on the subject, as do many people.

There is no point in proclaiming one's mediocrity.

Being humble before God and the universe is one thing, but either pretending, believing, or telling others that one is inferior to them is pointless.

I'm a genius, and anyone else can be if they choose. That's what I'm really saying.

And I'm also only a genius because of the will of God, and that I might receive his/her/it's teachings, knowledge and wisdom.

Only by embracing transcendental knowledge and wisdom can I truly excel in any field. Only by being in awe can I learn the greatest lessons of the universe, and I am truly in awe. One has to be in awe to discover genius.