Monday, April 11, 2005

Love letter to a lexicographer.

(But I lost her email address...)

Felicitations, Giovanna...

How are things? I'm still in Austin, feeling solipsistic and mordant, and quite moribund at times; yet still I have my fatuous moments. I'm as jejune as ever, though not laconic, as you may gather; I still embrace levity. There's a degree of comity here in Austin, one may almost call it largesse; I do feel supported enough to fill my lacuna, though.

I'd say that my weltanschauung is growing, despite being in Texas - I remain restive - indeed, coming here has been a revivication, and my whole rubric has changed. I've lost a lot of my old peremptory nature, am learning to engender an egalitarian attitude, and have found I've been able to lose a lot of my invective qualities. At long last, I'm learning to enjoy a new found elan.

Epistemology has been a passion for me lately, too: perhaps it's replaced the satyriasis of my youth. I wouldn't say I exude hubris, though - I have much to learn, still. Don't we all, though? My knowledge is inchoate. But forgive me for this logorrhea - loquaciousness is a new thing to me. I think it's something to do with my new-found gemutlichkeit. Maybe I'm trying to become one of the clerisy, I'm not sure...

I think a lot to do with it is my earlier dysphasia. It caused me to be disengenuous, as simple aphorisms were never easily at hand .My lack of confidence meant that I could never be particularly aphoristic. So now I'm learning growing in temerity. For example, I feel I can handle a confutation more easily without being complaisant. My self catechizing, too, has reduced, and I'm more erudite than ever. As long as I can conflate knowledge, I'm happy. Gone are my old phlegmatic ways - I find a cornucopia of things to study and do now, and I can enjoy an insouciance like never before. Like you, I'm enjoying the numinous quality of words. Some are so mellifluous, aren't they? Ah! The wonders of the arcane!

Jack.

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