The New Challenge

Well, it's nearly another new year, and I'm facing up to the challenge of finding income for the rest of my life - a day at a time, anyway. I'm considering the possibility of going to either New York or Los Angeles in the hunt for work as an actor. I know it's possible: I just have to get on with the doing of it.

Taking the bull by the horns is really what it's all about. I think I just need to let myself be the kind of "larger than life" character that Stephen Fry speaks of in his wonderful documentary The Secret Life of the Manic Depressive

I do realise that I've been scared, and have hidden myself away these past years. I wasn't able to defend myself from others as effectively as I might have, and I made myself too vulnerable. Vulnerability is necessary, but so are boundaries. Part of my healing has been finding my boundaries, and reconnecting with myself.

But the main thing is that I be myself now. Being myself, I'm much, much more powerful than when I've been hiding and using my "half self"