The emerging me

I find it so exciting that I keep emerging from the myriad of "mes" that have made up my identity in the past. It's interesting that people on GU have quoted things that "I" have said in the past, as if I've not grown as a human being in my life, and found that my opinions and views, attitudes, understanding, wisdom and beliefs haven't grown as I've got older.

So many people live each day in the past, unable to let go of things that have been said, as if we weren't just like rivers ourselves, constantly flowing as energy and life flows through us. But some people want to keep things in the past. They want a person to remain the same, even if that person is "bad" in their eyes. Again, they fail to understand that we as human beings aren't static, but flowing. They want a person to be what they decided they were, and go to great lengths to "prove" that reality is what they decided it was long ago.

I had that little thought earlier, as I was playing poker. I remembered the thrill of winning hands of poker years ago, when it was really outside chances that I would win. I remember thinking how I'd somehow proved that I was lucky, even though I hadn't won anything in other hands. My "proof" was that I'd won. I didn't take into account the odds that had been making me lose all the time before. And so many people gamble for the same reasons: that they're ignorant of reality, mathematics, and the way IT all works.

What's exciting about being The Emerging Me is that I recognise those old crippling belief systems all the time, as a finer logic comes.

Interesting, as I was playing cards, as I became aware of wanting cards to come up, and realising that I was really in the hands of fate, in many respects. I mean, there is a "law" of averages, but there's still no reason why fate shouldn't deal a person a succession of really good or really bad hands throughout life. One can help luck along, for sure, but there's still elements of uncertainty, either in or against one's favour.

The emerging me understands these facts, and is now committed to a greater, healthier life of logic and metaphysical excellence.

I know, even reading this, that I might look back on this and see the faults or missed perspectives in this very entry. What excites me is that I have the chance to grow, learn, and recognise them.