Monday, July 11, 2005

Another wonderful insight!

I just had another brilliant insight, about people and what they think.

So many people get tied up with the opinions of others, and never really express themselves adequately, nor honestly, for fear of ridicule or judgement, or some such negativity. And so they stay contained in a constricted mindset of niceness and wanting to fit into the status quo. They won't express anger, for example, because they don't want to be exposed as being angry. Anger is an honest emotion, and they like to hide it, even from themslves.

Then, witnessing it, they're quick to judgement and condemnation of others for being angry, when in fact what it is is that they want to be angry themselves.

Then, of course, they want to dump shame on the person who exposed their own anger. Shamed themselves by their hidden feelings, they want others to be as stifled as they are.

And so, the shame around anger stifles so many of us, and makes us the powerless individuals that many, many of us are.

From this conclusion, I say, once more, to my anonymous friend "fuck you" for attempting to shame me, when all that you're doing is try to shame me that way you've been shamed yourself. I won't play that game any more, thanks!

Part of my insight is that there are people "out there" who understand this. They know the appalling prison of shame, and understand, too, that as humans they're entitled to be imprefect, without some dickhead telling them otherwise.

It seems that in life one's given the occasional barrage by one's peers. It's like some sort of initiation ceremony, I think. You say what you think is your truth, then everyone attacks you, and it's then that you have to decide whether or not to walk your talk. And what is a life without a walked talk, after all?

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