Jack does Hamlet

A short video, of a soliloquy from Hamlet, that's summed up the way I've felt periodically in my life.

It's actually been interesting making this short video, because I've done different versions of it, and I've been criticising my acting abilities as I've been watching it. Acting used to mean so much to me, and I really wanted to be able to do it well, but I realise now that it was for the wrong reasons. I experienced a real selfconsciousness doing it, as well, as it's brought up a bunch of feelings about my own worth as a person, an actor, and a serious person. It's said that comics all want to play Hamlet, because he's the epitome of their other self - the serious, introspective self. As I've done this exercise (being as real as I could for the film) it brings up that sense of shame that had made me want to cover over myself with humour and wackiness so much in my life.

If that makes any sense...

The beauty of doing this blog is that it "puts me out into the universe". Difficult to describe, really. It's rather like throwing oneself to the winds of fate. Rather than be locked up in my own mind/body/apartment/circle, I'm letting myself be "out there" to be loved, criticised, desired, laughed at, or anything else. The main thing is that I'm being me, in the purest, most innocent sense. That's healthy, in my book, and it's an affirmation of my self acceptance.

If I'm to get egg on my face, then so be it!

Click HERE to watch the video